just thinking, wondering, dreaming. but inside my heart is screaming. i'm crying out inside. things are getting heavy, more hard to hide. my life seems wasted, nothing but lies. why? i ask. can't it all be, the happy home, the loved memories. hold me near, heal my heart. make it all go away. all the pain.

its been months guys. don't be mad. i'm sorry. i've been on this myspace kick forever. man its addictive. anyway. i miss my family on blogstream. how is everyone???? please comment me back so i know your not mad..lol.

xoxo
serenity

my 21st birthday was march ninth guys!! i had a lot of fun..

God, can I learn from this?
Walk away, leave the mess?
Erase the pain,
no.
for I will be forever stained.
my heart left in the rain,
my tears stream down.
I can't see anything around.
No sounds,
only my heart beat,
i feel so alone,
my broken home.
once ours, is now gone.

I am so sad inside,
lost in this fight.
erase the memories from my sight.
try to hold on,
remain strong.
stay in love with you.
hope it all remains true.
but it didn't exhist.
erased bliss.
deadly kiss,
took away my sanity.
fogged my reality.
looking in your eyes,
trying to confide.
hold on tight.
love me,
need me.
open your eyes and see.
we were meant to be.
i held on so damn long.
my life is a miserable sad love song.
alone in this house again tonight.
sitting here,
while your holding her tight.
then decide to come home.
to me, just to fight.
i'm so alone.
i've held it all in,
don't let it show,
now i'm loosing self control.
i desperately,
need sanity.